i am slow… be patient

I’m terribly sad, that i think i wouldn’t be able to sleep last night. early morning I was awake, and realized that I wasn’t feeling sleepy and still had a few hours to sleep, but I just couldn’t.
The kind of sadness that makes you want to lock yourself at home and don’t want to meet anyone, don’t want to pretend.
God, give me strength. You’re my only strength and the only Person that can make me secure. Now is 12:41 in the afternoon, and I don’t know what else to do to kill time. I wish today ends sooner and the pain leaves me soon too.