guess today is full of sentimental things once again.
feel so tired. tired. sad. could hardly concentrate, don’t want to talk much, and just wanna sit alone staring at the window while i was on the train.
God, i realized how fragile i am. none of the things i expected could last more than a day. i feel like crying all the time, and don’t have even a slight energy to achieve things i am supposed to do.
it’s so funny how i feel so strong when things go the way that pleases me, and like today i feel so weak and just want to lie down on bed. no… i must be strong, i must look ahead. problems are there to be solved, aren’t they? i have God. i can always talk to him, and he will never dessert me.
i just need to take time. alone.
i also feel a bit strange about my own feeling toward someone. how i don’t wanna talk to her or even have a slight conversation, caused by my own self of realization, of how selfish she is. she only talks about herself, even when i am in trouble. well, what could i expect, huh? perhaps I’m too quick to judge, but i just feel that way, of course with reasons and facts.
one more thing.
there’s one thing I’m almost completely certain about a thing. i just can’t prove it. guess it’s just a hunch. my feelings are not always true, but many times i found them to be true.
will take a short nap for an hour. after that i will continue on living. again.
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